Artist of the Akshauhini - Part 4
The startling sensation of seeing an unfamiliar person in your room. The doctor’s back is turned, but the red and blue attire is unmistakable. They’re not the clan physician; she went along north with Chaemshar’s father and brothers. There’s a soft grinding noise as they work an alabaster mortar and pestle on top of her dresser. The room is filled with the heavy scent of medicine, herbaceous and bitter in equal parts.
“Wait. You’ll take this first.” They produce a pill the size of a glass marble. It’s freshly made; the dark lacquer shell is still viscous. Chameshar almost chokes getting it down her dry gullet.
The person to enter after the doctor isn’t her mother. A long gray muzzle probes through the doorway first. The Jawik-kecil it belongs to is tall and spindly. His clothing, threadbare and faded, has the Akshauhini colors. It’s hard to discern how he regards her by his slit-pupil eyes and flat white teeth.
“Bhagyakara’s whiskers. You’re awake. Aahit was concerned you might not. Wake up, I mean. Your low soul and high soul were so far away from each other, you see.”
“My lower soul feels like it wants to crawl out of me.” Chameshar can feel the medicine sizzling in her stomach. “Have we met?”
“Oh, not directly, I suppose. We’ve seen you though. I’m Star Phaalyn.” A Dhamen name and a Dhamen accent. He was one of the masters — overseers? — of the Five Factories along with someone named Aahit. There are special telescopes on the Factories that let them see what’s happening on the ground and the Akash around them. This was how he was able to see Chaemshar through a hole in the roof of the headquarters.
Chaemshar wants to ask him about the paintings, about the Factories, but she can hardly stay awake through his words.
When she wakes up again he’s gone and the sun is setting through the drawn blinds. Her mother sits in the corner. “You’ve been leaning on Bhagyakara too hard for years now,” she says. “And now it catches up to you.”
Chaemshar tries to clear her throat of the thickness coating it. “I’m doing well, thank you.”
“To put yourself in danger over such a triviality is an insult to your ancestors and to your relations who are putting their lives at risk as we speak.”
How at risk can they be shipping spare underwear and heads of water buffalo across the Akash? “I don’t think Phraya Aruchavi would call it a triviality. Saving the work he’s paid me, us, so generously for?
“To Naraka with what that man would call it. You still believe that you were hired on your ‘merits’, and that the money is meant for you?” Her mother stands and goes to the door. “Have you not asked those dissolute friends of yours in the city about that generosity? Have you not realized that rajata is really a consolation to your suffering father? As if that child could simply issue some checks to fix the injury he’s done to all of us.”
Chameshar says nothing for what feels like forever. Her arm and a multitude of patches across her face and body are throbbing. “And yet you accept every one of them.”
In a week she’s well enough to leave the house. Her studio is filled with canvasses stacked like planks of wood. It smells faintly of smoke. The murals are nowhere to be seen, but in the corner of one stack a patch of cyan protrudes. She tugs and Taheng slides out to greet her. The right side of the canvas has singed away; the witch and her maranhig now stare out at a jagged fringe of black erasing the right side of the composition entirely. Gata’s lower half is burned away, though the maranhig seems unfazed.
She’s still short of breath — did it ever take her this long to walk up that hill? — and the smell of burnt canvas triggers her nausea. Outside she shields her eyes against the glare and makes out a few trace plumes of smoke rising off the city.
It had been privateers hired by one of the rajanates. They had hooked around the eastern edge of Imperial territory and pose as merchant ships the rest of the way. The newsrolls allege this was facilitated by collaborators among the periphery. A handful of ships had strafed New Chelor as well.
Neither the sculptor nor the composer come to visit during her convalescence. They’re too busy. Khanor Avenue is still covered with rubble from where facades of former factories and warehouses got split down the center and blown into the street. Several of the sculptor’s family’s storefronts were damaged. When Chaemshar’s well enough to take a sampan she finds the composer in the park sitting on a piece of a fallen pillar in the strumming a Bamajayan sapeh.
”Chae, I’m sorry.” He lays aside the sapeh and jumps down, looking at the canvas sling around her arm. “I wanted to visit you, but there was so much happening…”
“It doesn’t matter.” She doubts he even knows where she lives. Not that her mother would’ve let him get past the annex anyways. “I’m glad you’re okay at least.”
He goes on at length about mutual acquaintances who were also injured. His younger brother, a sailor in the Imperial Fleet, hasn’t sent a message back home in more than a season. It doesn’t take long for it to get awkward. They aren’t sure what to say to each other anymore now, with these injuries they’ve acquired independently.
The stipend ends abruptly. Her mother says that when she went to the narrowband tower in the city to send a message to the Sirihanok fleet, she also directed a message to the phraya, resigning on her daughter’s behalf. Chaemshar doesn’t want to be slapped so she instead spends a very long time in the studio, looking and blank burnt canvasses.
The war ends not long before the end of the year. Fireworks and lysiddhi light shows go off in the streets, but the atmosphere’s palpably different compared to the times the Akshauhini returns from a conquest. The Imperial censor relents and newsrolls begin printing more tangible information. There are more deaths and injuries, more sunken ships. The conclusion of the conflict isn’t the capitulation of an outlying island but a tangle of overlapping treaties with the rajanates. And the traces of the privateer raid still linger in the poorer quarters of the city. What energy exists is subdued.
Inspiration is in short supply. Chaemshar sees the muted celebrations, but her mind is shackled to her mother’s words. If no one values her work in and of itself then why should she? She senses that she’s pitying herself. She desperately wants to expel all of her roiling thoughts onto someone who might have some sliver of understanding. The sculptor, Khadi — but both of them are indisposed. The Akshauhini hasn’t returned yet.
Chaemshar is drifting down Khanor when she hears hard-soled boots on the cobblestones behind her. The sailor looks like she’s barely out of her teens, though her Akshauhini uniform is well tailored. She salutes, tells her there’s a ship docked at the port.
The city docks were one of the first places struck by the privateers. Builders are still on the high docking towers, crisscrossing the bamboo scaffolding like ants. There’s no red-and-black ship amidst the towers. She notices a familiar clan sigil
“Chaemshar. It feels like it’s been decades.”
It’s dark inside the ship’s narrow bridge. It takes a moment for her eyes to adjust and to recognize the person sitting next to the helm. The person stands up with a grunt of effort and hugs Chaemshar. Their horns scrape together for a moment — the sharp sensation of something like static electricity.
“You’re back. What about the rest of the Akshauhini?”
Khadi reaches out, settling some of the sandalwood hair that got loose around her horns. “They’re still settling things with some wayang who are still fighting.”
Sweat pools at the base of her neck. She thinks of fire and broken glass.“So why are you here?”
“Garjatran insisted I return early. Ah… the phraya, I mean.” The ship carries wounded sailors and key pieces of booty to be taken back to the Five Factories as soon as possible. “And Khrotyan asked me to deliver this to you.” She reaches into the deck coat draped around her shoulders for a thick red envelope, Chaemshar’s final severance. “He asked me to send his regards too.” She smiles wryly.
Chaemshar smiles back. The sight of a friendly face is making her almost giddy. “That doesn’t explain why the phraya you specifically. You aren’t hurt are you?”
“No, by ancestors’ favor. The surgeons still insisted though.” She looks almost embarrassed as she touches a hand to her belly.
From the air, it feels as if the Aruchavi estate should be bigger. The house is scarcely larger than the Sirihanok ancestral home, dwarfed by the pale lake it skirts. It’s only when one gets closer that they notice the acuteness of the details. The entire structure is composed of blocks of sandstone and slim marble posts, materials almost certainly imported from Chakan. The arched facade is occluded behind the bladed leaves of the rattan palms.
The Aruchavi who designed the house had been an architect who helped build the Imperial palace. Khadi explains this in the annex, her voice echoing off the vaulted ceiling. She gestures with upturned palm at the dark wooden ancestors occupying half the floorspace. Garjatran once showed represents the architect, but she’s forgotten which one. She inclines her head to them, as if in apology.
The halls are lined with eclectic furniture — all fine but arranged hodgepodge in the way a man sometimes decorates — nothing Chakan nor Chela in their red-and-teal design. The interior even smells foreign. Traces of camphor, myrrh, oiled leather, and ginseng.
A stack of huge canvasses lies rolled up in the study near the windows. Chameshar recognizes the singe marks as soon as she crosses the doorway. It’s hard for her to believe she pulled all of them down and dragged them onto that ship in the middle of the fire.
“Star brought them here after he and Aahit were able to clear the rubble off the Perilla.” Khadi sighs as she sits, steadying herself against the side.
“I’m surprised they survived. The paintings, I mean.” Chaemshar scratches the base of her horn.
“Oh, those ships can survive just about anything. Ask Star or Aahit the next time you see them and they’ll talk your horns off.”
Over coffee, Khadi explains that she wants to commission her for a painting. A portrait of her before she delivers the new child. She wants to surprise the Phraya with it when he returns from the north with the Akshauhini. Chaemshar’s fingers hesitate on the smooth cream ceramic; she puts the cup back down and keeps her eyes on the curls of steam.
“I’m not sure if you heard, but I’m no longer employed by the Aruchavi.”
“Khrotyan informed me before I left.” She reaches over and touches her hand. “It’s going to be me hiring you this time. Under my own name, and for a single commission. Your family shouldn’t have an issue with that, right?”
The Sirihanok ships had returned earlier in the season. Somehow half of them were sunk and her younger brother had lost one of his feet, necessitating an expensive prosthetic from Dhamenthao. The mood at home is muted, sullen, regardless of the ribbons and letters of recognition stamped by the assistant vice marshal of the Empire. Her father says almost nothing about what had happened to her. There was only one exception, when she returned to her room to find him there looking as her painting of Taheng the Cyan, holding it open by its burned corners. He let it go, the light dry canvas rolling back in on itself, and only stopped on his way out to look at the traces of healed burns stippled on her neck.
Chaemshar sighs. “Please. They’re astute enough to know you’re the phraya’s wife.”
“Your father and my grandfather were close though. Believe me, it will make a difference.”
When she returns a week later she almost drops her sketchbook in the annex. Khadi is a white presence in front of the plants in the adjoining hall. She received the baro’t saya from a Jelayan seamstress living in the outer territories — a voluminous blouse with a densely embroidered kerchief big enough to drape over the shoulders, both woven from fine translucent abaca fibers and unlike anything on the streets of New Chelor. The wraparound skirt, a thicker fabric in dark blue and red around herringbones of ticked black, goes down to her ankles. It’s the glistening thread running through her hair, however, that draws Chaemshar’s eye.
Khadi notices her expression. “I found it while on campaign.” She touches the long silvery stone that hangs on her forehead. “Apparently it used to be in the collection of one of the rajas, I forget which.”
“If that’s the case then how did it get to you?” Chaemshar asks, blithe, but Khadi just smiles.
Khadi sits for the portrait in the courtyard under the pomelo trees. At the center is a small stone hut with a tiled roof, the facade like that of the house in miniature. She calls it the pavilion of seclusion. They talk as Chaemshar works. Khadi seems wistful about the maneuvers she led, in spite of the direction of the Imperial marshal. “Needlessly complex” and “wasteful,” she says. While she talks, Chaemshar only remembers the noise of girders warping and the heat pressing against her face — almost drops her charcoal to the ground.
Near the end of the first day something rustles in the bushes by the pavilion. A child emerges with a carved wooden dha in hand. She looks around five or six, Khadi in miniature. Her eyes, flat bluish black coals, focus on Chaemshar for a moment before she walks up and hits her in the leg with the dha.
“Die.”
“Achal!” Khadi’s stool creaks. She would’ve bolted up if not for the state of her swollen belly. “That’s not how you treat a guest. And how did you get loose from Sunya again?”
More rustling. This time a jawik-besar in draping servant’s attire. “I’m sorry, khun. She gave me the slip out the bathroom window again,” she says between gasping breaths.
It’s different doing a commission for a friend. There’s the additional pressure of wanting to get it right, to not wasting the other’s time. At the same time it feels as if a dam in Chaemshar’s mind has lifted. For the first time since the start of the war she feels excited to paint, to absorb all of the image front of her and render it out onto the canvas in lines, shades, and color. She moves quickly, pushed hard by the current rushing out around her, and scared it might recede away just as quickly. Within a fortnight the essence of the thing is complete. There are refinements to be done here and there, but the time for Khadi to sit still and hold a pose long since passed. On her insistence, Chaemshar keeps visiting every day even though she could easily do the remaining work by herself. She fills in colors and corrects inconsistencies from a shaded part of the courtyard while Khadi reclines on divan nearby, trying to stay off her feet.
“Not much longer now,” Khadi says.
“Yes.” Chaemshar nods. “The light under the pomelos is lovely. I want to make sure I get it right.”
“Ah. That’s not what I meant.” She pats her distended belly. “Though it’s fortunate timing either way. A narrowband just came in. Garjatran is on his way back.”
One day Chaemshar is working alone while Khadi rests in the bedroom. She’s in the study, sheltering against the rain when she hears the sound of the front doors, the popping where the wood has swollen in the frame. An unfamiliar male voice echoing out from the annex, followed by a loud exclamation from Sunya and then Achal. It’s the first time she’s heard the child’s voice in something other than a monotone. The talking draws closer and she wonders whether she should make herself scarce, though the idea is ridiculous. Would she hide under the couches? Behind the easel?
Her back is still turned towards the entrance when they walk past. She sees reflections in the glass of the bookshelves, a tall lithe form in dark red, Achal riding on his shoulders. Sunya’s bulk walking alongside. The person following behind pauses, looks into the study.
“I recognize the smell of that paint.”
They must have come straight from the ships — Khrotyan still wears belt and harness over his uniform. The beskap’s sleeves are frayed and the collar half open. “You look well. I’m glad. Star’s narrowband was vague, as usual. It was not even clear whether…”
“I’m fine. I just wish I could have saved more of the paintings.”
He shakes his head. His hair has grown longer. “You were not even supposed to be there. We appreciate the effort, but I would have preferred you remained safe.” He steps closer and for a wild second Chaemshar thinks he might embrace her.
“Did you get the other narrowband? From my mother?”
He nods. “That’s why I was surprised to see you here of all places. I take it that was Khun Khadi?”
Later, after he excuses himself to attend to something, she packs her tools. She’s organizing her brushes when the doorway fills with someone again. She looks up expecting to see Khrotyan and almost drops the brushes. The Phraya is taller and thinner than she imagined, a whittled branch of dark narra. His hair falls in waves and rests just below the slope of his shoulders.
“So this is it?” Brown eyes look past her and rest on the painting.
“I… yes, this is the portrait.” What else could it be? “I’m sorry, Phraya. I was hoping to have it complete by the time you returned.”
His expression doesn’t change. “It looks complete to me.” He walks around the divans. “It’s as if she’s in the room with us.”
Somehow the compliment burns brighter than almost any she’s received before. This is the most powerful man in Chela. She chuckles softly. “Maybe it is, Phraya. I’ve always struggled with knowing when a work of mine is done.”
“It’s never good to leave a thing unfinished.” He turns his gaze back towards her, eyes passing over her form the way they had the portrait a moment earlier. “You should keep visiting until you feel satisfied. I’m sure Khadi would be delighted.”